ashley

everything from yesterday...and the last one is the thing i wanted to send but never would.

This is going to be a pretty huge rant and rave about what's going on in my life. Get pumped.

Basically- first and foremost the thing that's pissing me off to the point that I can't see straight-
Alright ladies,
I’m trying to understand you. I know I’m one of your kind, but I absolutely don’t comprehend how you (we) work.

 

How can one day (less than a week ago I might add) one specific girl apologized for everything she (and my exboyfriend) did to me, and then now (today) I get an email explaining that my ex-boyfriend and I can’t be friends because it’s causing them to fight?

Mind you, we don’t talk often or even a lot. Just the casual how are you, talk about the parents, his son, etc.. I don’t understand how if I’m over the situation she isn’t- she’s the one he cheated on ME with, she’s the one he picked and has been with for a year. What part of that suddenly allows her to be jealous of me and make me feel like I’m ruining her relationship when in fact, I would never do to any female what she did to me?

I’m fucking irritated. And on that final note, I’d like to thank my boyfriend for being so level headed and not being a jealous raging walking hormone of a human being because I’d probably kill myself.

Any thoughts?

Second- again with the ladies-
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH US?

Seriously, I have a friend who has this boyfriend who's a complete shit bag. I've told her a million times he's cheating, whatever. Everyone else sees it but her. So, her decision is to dive full on into him and drop all of her friends.

FUCK IT. I'm done, I'm so fucking tired of trying to keep people out of the situations I've been in.


fuck.it.all.


on another note- life's been going well besides these two bullshit happenings.

woke up this morning around 7 and went out for a jog. i went 3 miles today. i'm feeling so good about myself lately i can't even explain it. this semester is coming to an end and i've got a's. i'm just determined to do better by myself and by my family and friends. i had forgotten how good it felt to go out in the morning and work out. it just gives you this energy and makes you want to be productive.

this is short, but i have to do mom's laundry and do my homework. i've got lots to work on today. i'll update again later. k bye!

oh i also have a tumblr. i update it way more often because i have tumblr on my blackberry. it's
scantrons.tumblr.com

"everything is not as it seems."
well, isn't that the idea behind my entire existence lately?

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it's new, anyone wants it i'll let it go for $100 or best offer.

let me know.

let your friends know!

pierced my double nostril.
officially hate david, he confessed to cheating AFTER we broke up.
living my life.
missing most of you.

suggest excellent books.

http://anotherdietfedbycripplingdefeat.blogspot.com/

keep track of me there.
too many memories here.
don't delete me though.
i always come back.

i forgot to mention, feel free to donate any xanax to me.

you broke up with me because you're not "in love" after three months?

yeah, fuck you.

i had someone tell me today that she thought you were falling in love. that you were doing things she'd never seen you do before. do you have any idea how that makes me feel? how somethings so insignificant to everyone else, makes my day, my week, my month. how did i let you get me this wrapped up?

i'd be lying if i said i wasn't loving every minute of it.

It's a proven fact that children can see ghosts, spirits, whatever you'd like to call them. Most of the time this talent disappears by the time they reach the age of two. However, for some lucky few, it lasts.

walk backwards and say goodbye to what is right.
understanding what makes this, what makes it, what makes us right.
god save this gunslinging generation
"tell god i will return in the morning."



tomorrow, i will be where my heart stays. i've got a head full of memories and a pocket full of cash. hopefully, this time you'll fall for me the way i've fallen for you. i'm willing to bet on it.

incase you are wondering, i deleted you if you haven't updated in a while. comment here if you want to be added back.